Rap and Hip Hop

Music is about story telling through words and sounds, though not always with words. Writing about what you see and experience in your life currently or when you grow up and then performing it or publishing it for the world to see is its own type of therapy.

I had no idea until I started getting into Hip Hop that there is even a stigma then it comes to music. What a certain genre of music will sound like or what the lyrics will contain and how you will feel about that. Out of any genre that exists, the one that got the most negative reaction to many people I grew up around was rap and hip hop. I understand in some way but I was mainly into the vibe and feel of the music and less about what is being said. I often had no idea what they were really referencing anyway. I have re-listened to some rap songs I knew growing up and I understand them now so much better now and realize I had no idea at all.

This made me strong, and no one's gonna like what I'm pumpin'

But it's wrong to keep someone from learning something

So get up, it's time to start nation building

I'm fed up, we gotta start teach the children

That they can be all that they want to be

There's much more to life than just poverty

~Words Of Wisdom by 2Pac

Growing up I was in the ‘inner city’ school so I was exposed to a lot of different people and music. Anything popular on the radio I was into, regardless of genre, which included hip hop and rap. I remember when I was younger having this aversion to anything hip hop or rap in it, until I reached my teenage years then I got way more into it.

I watched this movie called Save The Last Dance and fell in love with it as the actors were great but for me it was the music that got me. I also really loved music from the movie Step Up, especially Yung Joc. I notice I really vibe with anything that you can easily dance and move around with- I even got a Wii game like the Just Dance series but with Hip Hop songs only that you dance along with and that has been my favorite so far.

I remember when I was younger really wanting an uncensored Eminem CD as he was the coolest and my mom not letting me get it. I was so upset and I thought if I cried and wished hard enough, she would magically change her mind. I didn’t realize until watching this series on Netflix called Hip Hop Evolution that a part of the reason why we have the explicit lyrics labels on music and censorship involves this hip-hop group called 2 Live Crew. I had not heard of their music before, though I vaguely remember hearing a snippet of one of their songs as a ringtone in the movie Disturbia. There was a bunch of controversy over their song lyrics and titles, which looking at their song titles on Spotify I see why. Also, it mentions them as having popularized ‘booty rap’ which explains so much of the music I heard growing up in the 90’s and 2000’s.

In the show they explained that once hip hop and rap became more popular and spread out to other areas how parents were up in arms about what their children were listening to, including other genres/artists. It seemed like the target was mainly hip hop/rap and the lyrics that seemed to ‘promote violence’, even though the lyrics are just the raw truth about the way of life of a black American born in poverty. If you don’t want to listen to it, at least read some of the lyrics and hear their story. The more songs I listen to, the more sounds I recognize in modern music as callbacks to the originals, which is fun to finally connect between decades of music.

Some people say it’s not a race thing and I know not everything is but the more I learn about the past the more I see racist undertones. It is not always direct or clear to see but it becomes clearer the more I learn about the past, not just in America. We all want someone to hate and be the scapegoat for how society is and it is usually a minority. Crime is higher in poorer areas where the jobs pay less and the education you get sucks, what else are you going to do? I thought it would be an easy task to just move from a bad area and get a better job but now I see that it is not so easy to do. Especially listening to the song, The Message from Grandmaster Flash and the Furious Five, circa 1982. In it they talk about the state of the ‘ghetto’ where they are from and how they feel the need to get a job rather than go to school because they were so poor.

A child is born with no state of mind

Blind to the ways of mankind

God is smilin' on you but he's frownin' too

Because only God knows what you'll go through

You'll grow in the ghetto livin' second-rate

And your eyes will sing a song called deep hate

The places you play and where you stay

Looks like one great big alleyway

~The Message by Boogie Down Productions

Then they see some people living a life they want to live with money, flashy clothes and cars and wonder how they can get that life. When they do, they find it’s much easier and faster selling drugs or joining a gang to keep safe. It also offered a sense of belonging and protection that most things did not. I wish more people would listen more before judging or saying that they hate it already. So many people hear a few hip hop or rap songs and say they hate the whole genre and totally avoid it like the plague.

In a way, I feel like both metal and hip hop/rap can find common ground as the genres are commonly misunderstood and avoided by the general public. I have separate post for Metal and Genre-Bending where I mention how, when comes to metal, there is this assumption that it is negative and hate-filled when that like a small percentage of it. Some metal songs even dip into rap a little, also called trap metal. 

From watching this Netflix series, I am just now listening to some of the beginning sounds of hip hop and rap and I like it. I have even started a playlist. I really vibe with NWA and Biggie. Then 2Pac is on another level. I decided to listen to more of his stuff and the song Keep Ya Head Up really got me and is really relevant right now. Who knew that much of his words from the early 90’s would still mean something to this day? The more I hear the more I want to hear.

He was very wise if you listen to his lyrics and I love that he was pro-women. I wonder what he would say about the world today? Probably no changes (which is a 2Pac song). I will say he is one of the few artists in early rap/hip hop to talk about suicide, later being Eminem and more others but the darker lyrics I mainly heard from 2Pac and Biggie. Crazy how they were the ones whose life ended early (and not by suicide) while Diddy remained around.

Time to heal our women, be real to our women

And if we don’t, we'll have a race of babies

That will hate the ladies, that make the babies (oh, yeah, baby)

And since a man can't make one

He has no right to tell a woman when and where to create one

So will the real men get up

I know you're fed up ladies, but keep your head up

~ Keep Ya Head Up by 2Pac

It was really cool to watch how they used to sample music manually before machines and computer programs and listening to Grandmaster Flash you can hear the disco influence in the music. Technology has advanced so much more now but it is always cool to see where we came from in music. I now realize how many songs were samples of other songs and I had no idea. It is really cool how you can take a beat from a song and tweak it just a bit and make a whole new song. Crazy. I love the idea of mixing sounds and genres so much. Like Linkin Park, I guess. I really vibed more with Mike Shinoda than Chester’s screaming but back then I didn’t listen to much music with screaming in it.

One group called the Geto Boys rap about refusing to join the military or wanting to go to war because only the poor go to war over issues started by people who never end up fighting. How the president can say whatever and get another country angry and the poor pay with their lives. It is so clear to me that so many of our systems need an overhaul but they are not a priority, not when they are working how they should for the people they are made for- not regular people like me and definitely not the poor. It is really upsetting to hear what they experience just trying to exist like everyone else. It something the trans community can really identify with as well.

I know how it feel to wake up fucked up

Pockets broke as hell, another rock to sell

People look at you like you's the user

Sellin' drugs to all the losers, mad Buddha-abuser

But they don't know about your stress-filled day

Baby on the way, mad bills to pay

That's why you drink Tanqueray, so you can reminisce

And wish you wasn't livin' so devilish, shit

~Everyday Struggle by The Notorious B.I.G.

I never knew how many issues people of color faced until the Black Lives Matter became around more after 2020. The only time I remember privileges being mentioned growing up is in regards to behavior- if you are bad, you get your favorite things (privileges) taken away. Access to those things being your privilege. But I never thought of it in a social or societal dynamic. I started a list of my privileges just to do it one day, with the top being female, white, which are major ones but I also added car, only child, and house. I know many people who do not have many things I already have, though it’s not always specifically about material possessions. There are probably a lot more that I don’t even think about. It is a good thing to be aware of, though not something you need to bully yourself about like I have. I really do believe we can all learn and do better.

Thinking back, it seemed like I wanted to find something to hate about Obama, besides politically. I hate to admit I gave Trump more of a benefit of the doubt than Obama and that makes no sense looking back on it now. I realize now there are numerous old, racist ideologies still so ingrained in most white American culture that have to be examined and dismantled. Many things that were accepted back in the 1990s or early 2000’s are not today, which I don’t think are necessarily bad things because to some, including me, we love the nostalgia that some old music brings. Yes, people in the ‘woke’ group do take it too seriously but really bringing awareness and conversations about these old ideologies I believe are a good thing.

They got me trapped

Can barely walk the city streets

Without a cop harassing me, searching me

Then asking my identity

Hands up, throw me up against the wall

Didn't do a thing at all

~Trapped by 2Pac

I don’t think everything needs to be censored but countered and challenged. The more we tolerate, the more we tolerate until there is no end. In the past there was Biggie and 2Pac’s death that finally brought some peace to the east/west coast battle. It makes me sad that things had to escalate to two artists being murdered for things to start to change. And now it seems we are even more desensitized around anything involving death after COVID, which is scary.

Watching the show Hustle and Flow and learning everyone’s story is hard because so many people are wanting to get out of the situation where they are at now, the judges told them up front everyone has a story you are going to have to have more than that. You have to really showcase your talent and have the star factor. Sometimes people beg to give them a chance because of some personal reason which while heartbreaking, so did most artists. What makes you stand out from others though?

I wonder sometimes if we are getting desensitized and apathetic to others hardships when we hear about it in movies, news, entertainment, etc. where it can become redundant and too much to handle. I find myself emotionally detaching more and more from much of it to protect my mental health but for some people they don’t get to do that because they have to live it. Everyday. Some say oh they could just get another job, move to another city, etc. you speak from privilege. I used to believe that way. Now I realize it was just easier to get mad and believe that that everyone had the same options and resources that we do. For the longest time, I did not realize that schools were funded by property taxes, thereby making education access not the same AT ALL. The quality of education is almost directly tied to how wealthy the area it is serving.

You do not get to choose the circumstances you are born into and the environment most black Americans are born into is not anything I have ever experienced or fully comprehend as a white person. I even grew up in a single mom household and concerned about money but never feared for my life from the cops or worried about getting mugged walking around my neighborhood. These are privileges I have that many others do not, which is something I am grateful for.

There are so many more things that are easier for me just because I am a white female, which is unfortunate. I can’t help but understand where their frustration and anger come from about life growing up in that surroundings as I would not want to live there either. It sounds like every day is a fight for survival and, listening to these lyrics, it pretty much is. I would not wish that on anyone. That is why I did not hesitate when it came to supporting the Black Lives Matter movement because lives should matter more than property and money. Period. 

Metal and Genre-Bending

The first metal song that I heard was 'Not Falling' by Mudvayne while watching this scary movie called Ghost Ship, which I loved. The song was perfect for that scene/movie and I remember wanting to find more about it. This was before your phone can just listen and tell you what song was playing so I had to get good at googling. Then when I watched the Saw movie franchise, they had a song called 'Forget to Remember' included in one of the movies and I was a fan. I did not like much of their older songs prior to 'Not Falling' and was hardly listening to anything ‘hard’ at the time. Now that I have heard some harder stuff hearing that song today it’s funny realizing how hard I thought their music was. I love Chad Grey’s scream and saw him live a few times when he was with HELLYEAH and those were fun concerts. One of which was a new years show which was fun. 

Their vibe was a lot different than my favorite band growing up that I was used to hearing when it came to rock music which was Tool. I really liked how it’s more than just music when it comes to them and there always seemed to be more than meets the eye when it came to their music, especially Maynard. I always identified with his weirdness.

This body holding me reminds me of my own mortality

Embrace this moment, remember, we are eternal

All this pain is an illusion

~Parabola by Tool

While I love the band, I hate most of their crazy fans. They are talented but I am not obsessed. Though I did get a really large poster of their 10,000 days artwork and other merch. Trying to get tickets to their concerts are a nightmare and you have to be super lucky or you will miss out. One year I was so desperate to go, I tried to get on it early to get tickets and they were sold out before I had a chance and were being resold for ridiculous prices. Apparently, their concert tickets usually sell out quickly and I just didn’t know. I was determined to go though and figured I would wait until it got closer to the day of the concert hoping to get tickets.

The day of the concert came and I found a craigslist post of someone who had an extra ticket from a friend who cancelled and, thankfully, they ended up being really cool and did not make me pay for the ticket. The concert had already started when I got there but I was just glad to be there and experience a Tool concert for the first time. I couldn’t believe I was hearing them live. When they came to town again, I was better prepared to score tickets so I could see the full show. I have always related with their music and sound. They really showcase music as an art form, which is what sets them apart from other bands in my opinion.

I am surrendering to gravity and the unknown

Catch me, heal me, lift me back up to the sun

I choose to live

~Gravity by A Perfect Circle

As I get older, I found myself identifying more with A Perfect Circle than Tool, at least lyrically. The song Judith and Passive I really like but the one I most identify with is called TalkTalk from their 2018 release Eat the Elephant. It really showcases how I feel about many people who say they are religious. I found that Maynard more clearly lets you know how he feels in A Perfect Circle than in Tool. Going as far as to name a song after his mother, who was the topic of many his other songs. I don’t count Tool or any other project he does ‘metal’ but rock. This is just the closest I had to metal for a long while.

I also found I really liked this band called Chevelle and I learned that the lead singer was heavily influenced by Maynard, which you can hear in how he sings. Similar to Chad Gray, I liked how their lead singer screams. I remember being in high school and listening to their album Wonder What’s Next and how it helped get me through. I really loved their sound and still do. Same thing with Deftones, though I did not devour them as much as Chevelle. There is something about the way they all sing it is just so haunting and beautiful, with a subtle rough edge to it. Oh, and the song Passenger is just too perfect. Their voices meld and fade in and out together so well. I remember the first time hearing that song and it was epic. I got to see Chevelle live and realized how much noise they make for 3 dudes. I know many of their songs and was able to scream along, which was fun. I love going to concerts and theirs was no exception.

You're waiting on miracles

We're bleeding out

Thoughts and prayers

Adorable (Crisis)

Like cake in a crisis

~TalkTalk by A Perfect Circle

Although the metal and rock genre are mostly male a dominated genre, there are a few bands that feature female artists that I really love. It really makes me happy when I find a girl in a band who can rock out just as hard. I know some people who do not care much for girl rock/metal groups and I can understand that. In 2016 I found this band called Amaranthe, which just looking at the band you might expect another Evanescence. But by listening you realize they are much more. I found them way better with a totally different sound/vibe. 

Although not really typical ‘metal’, I really like how they blend rock and electronic/pop and make it upbeat. You can’t be sad while listening to their music, unlike Evanescence. The lead singer, Elize, is gorgeous and I love her voice. My husband and I went with a friend to see them live in 2017 and even batman made an appearance and rocked out with us (pictured above)! I had a great time seeing them live and I want to see them again. 

They are from Sweden and have actually been around now since 2011. I was surprised by how many albums they already had by the time I discovered them. Also realizing they have 6 members in the band, with 3 doing vocals only. Elize does the main clean vocals and there is a guy who does clean vocals and a guy who does unclean vocals. And the way they blend all of them into a song is great. If you want to give their sound a test, I would suggest to check out a song called Maximize. 

My husband and I loved their music so much we had one of their song’s played at our wedding. While scrolling through their music videos on YouTube I come across this video- which is the exact song we used. I love it so much. That made me tear up.. I love how music connects us in small ways.

There is an all-girl metal band called Conquer Divide where they scream and when I first heard them, I swear I thought it was a dude screaming but then I watched a music video of theirs and was proven wrong. I have listened to a few other songs of theirs and am really impressed with them. I don’t know much about them and they are still new to me but I like their sound. Here is the music video I saw.

Another band to check out with a scream that will surprise you is a band called The HellFreaks and I actually stumbled on their music video for Weeping Willow while browsing YouTube for a different one and they got my attention. After seeing and hearing that I was very impressed. The video includes blood so if you do no like that then you might want to avoid the music video but here is a link to it- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XrM6Yq6rcSs&ab_channel=NapalmRecords. 

From Metal there are many subgenre’s that stem off from that, one of which I have discovered a liking for is industrial metal. The first one that comes to mind is one my husband introduced me to called Rammstein, which I really enjoy their sound even if I have no idea what they are saying sometimes. The more I listen, the more I learn of the language and how it sounds. I know much of it is ridiculous and I don’t take seriously at all but there are a few songs that really stand out to me. Sonne is a special one to me and I almost have some of it memorized. 

I was able to see them live when they came to the states in 2012 and they were great. I kept a list of all songs they played live, which included Sonne and Du Hast, and quite a few well known songs. I think it was a weekday but it turned out to be a good thing because once at the stadium there were not as many lower level higher priced seats sold so they moved everyone from the upper levels closer to the stage. Concerts are so exciting. Another industrial band I recommend that really scratches the itch is called 3TEETH. Finding them in 2020 made me rediscover this genre outside of just Rammstein or Rob Zombie. If you want to try them out, I suggest the song Slum Planet.

One big thing that I love about rock and metal just as a whole emulates the idea of ‘there is more than meets the eye’. The lyrics I have heard to some rock and metal songs are some of the darkest, deepest, most human things I have heard. They are not fake or made up but experienced and lived. Not even old school country could top some lines I have heard. It really does remind me that we are all human and share many of the same emotions. Even the dark ones. 

I think sometimes we get scared and feel ashamed of an emotion because it felt wrong or bad to feel them when they are meant to be felt and worked through. That is what music helps for me. Sometimes I just need validation and did not know I needed it. Sometimes just by listening to music it can offer all the release you need, if you let it. I feel so many things listening to music.

Today we shall no longer live in shame and regret

Of our inability to coexist in accord with nature

We must embrace our superior position upon this planet

And recognize it as a resource for our disposal

~Slum Planet by 3Teeth and Mick Gordon

Metal is not always dark and gloomy though. Not at all. I think that is biggest assumption when it comes to metal is it’s all negative and deep but I actually love when metal bands do not take themselves seriously at all. Every metal band is different and sing about different topics with varying degrees of seriousness. 

I found this German metal band called We Butter The Bread With Butter and their song ‘20 km/h’ is about riding in their scooter and how fast it can go. I love it. Even their name is crazy and I am about it. This other band called Powerwolf is amazing vocally (he is classically trained) but they sing about being werewolves and vampires. Just Google them and tell me that they take themselves seriously. If you see them they have on white make up like they are vampires and someone looking at their song titles might be concerned if they took them seriously but they are really just having a good time doing their own thing and not harming anyone.

Another subgenre of metal called Hardcore is different in distinct ways. Many of the bands have a very chaotic nature to them, even more so than usual. The time signatures change a lot between hard, soft, fast then slow, then build up to a breakdown. Sometimes it will make you think the song changed to a different artist but then you realize no it is the same one. Some people might not like that but I kind of like the chaotic nature of the music. It leaves you never knowing what to expect, which is some I love about genre-bending artists and songs. 

There is one in particular called The Browning with a similar sound to Amaranthe in that they blend metal and electronic, though The Browning is less poppy. The way they blend metal and electronic elements blows my mind. I have yet to find another group like them and I do keep searching. The best song that really encompasses their sounds is called Gravedigger. It starts out with the beat and slows down almost to a stop just to bring it back again just like techno songs. I highly recommend them. I am still learning to decipher what exactly the lead singer is saying in some of their songs but reading their lyrics they are about some real stuff that anyone can identify. Disconnect lyrics below talk about this generation of technology obsessed generation.

A whole generation disconnected, minds infected, souls rejected.

Everybody losing track of what respect is.

Overly obsessed with image, no perspective.

A whole room full of white screens and black souls.

Like cattle staring down into a black hole.

~Disconnected by The Browning

I am especially intrigued about how they got the idea of blending metal and techno. Like the type of songs that I used to hear at rave clubs I attended in the past that make you get up and stomp. They are about to come out with their new album and it sounds so good. I just realized while watching a podcast with the lead singer and he has a separate group with their wife who is featured on their song OMNI, which is kinda cool. Now they get to have their wife on tour with them. 

I am very impressed with their new stuff so far starting with Poison, released September of last year with their last album since then released 2021. I really vibe with their lyrics as well, new and old. They are uplifting in a way and very raw. I have yet to see them live and I cannot wait. I found on YouTube where he is recording his vocal and I learned that he does his vocals on the inhale so that is why it sounds so unique. The way the music blends together is so perfect. Here it is if you want to check it out- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TZGcGjjeAPQ

I am really into anything that doesn’t fit into the typical genre sound, anything that pushes the box of the genre. It seems like I am starting to see more and more blending of genres, which makes me happy. When Lil Nas X blended country and rap/hip hop that made me happy and it seems like country is taking a new sound and evolving as a genre to something different. 

Killed off religion and made up a new one

Where no one can question at all if it's ever your fault

Ayy, what's that called? I can't recall

Oh yeah, you're in a cult

~TokSik by STARSET

Music is meant to change with the times and not be so one dimensional. Plus, everyone has different music tastes so there is an audience for everything. I think it is really too bad that metal and rock as a whole gets stereotyped as this something negative. Every time I go to a rock or metal show there is always the nicest people and they tend to look out for each other. There is so much we can learn from rock and metal bands if only we gave them a listen but no clearly if you listen to one metal song it will make you want to go homicidal when it can actually be cathartic or hella validating. It is all in how you use it. I don’t believe any type of music is bad.

Another hardcore band I really like and have seen  live now twice, though one time we had to leave early so I don’t count it as much. The band is called Upon a Burning Body and they are actually from Texas as well so another reason I love their music. They had a really fun live show and I could tell they are a great group of guys and the lead singer I find really attractive. They brought out a corn hole game and were letting any kids from the audience win something really easily, which they didn’t have to do. Their music is very energetic and fun. Usually not dark but they released a song this year called Another Ghost about addiction and it is different for their sound but I love it.  I highly recommend it- 

Face your fears and reap the reward

Nothing in life worth having comes easy

So let go of the life you've known

Don't let fear control

~Extermination by Upon a Burning Body

I found this playlist on Spotify called Rocktronic I have been following for a while. Recently there was this image of the featured artist HVDES and I decided to give a listen. I discovered she had just released an album with a black horse on it, which intrigued me so I listened to her song called House of Cards (Paper Castles) and it is so good. I had no idea it was exactly what I was looking for. I really enjoy the message of the song Don’t You Dare Go Hollow. 

I am really happy to see more and more female vocalists in different genres you would not expect reminding everyone that metal and rock is not just a man’s genre. I started a playlist specifically for female metal artists or bands with at least one female in their lineup called FemMetal. Stumbling around on the internet I found a website under the same name, https://femmetal.rocks/ 

I love just stumbling around onto music. There was once I was looking for this song called Rings of Saturn and I stumbled on this band by the same name so I decided to give some of their songs a listen and I ended up liking one a lot. If you want to give it a listen its called The Macrocosm. It looks like they also have instrumentals of their music. Sometimes I am not feeling lyrics and just want melody or the rhythm. Lyrics can be too distracting sometimes and are not always necessary. I think it would be a really fun experience to go on tour or travel with a band. I could never do it but it’s fun to imagine.

The band A Day to Remember blows my mind. I remember listening to them for the first time and their sound goes from sounding like some emo teen song to some heavy breakdowns and hardcore guttural metal screams peppered throughout. One of my favorites from them is called Mr. Highway’s Thinking About the End. The breakdown on that song is great. 

It is crazy to realize it is the same guy singing. I had to look up to make sure that was correct (didn’t want to credit the wrong person) and on their Wikipedia page it mentions ‘Self Help Fest’ which is called that because most concertgoers at their shows feel like the music is really helping them. They made a good point by stating that, at the end of the day, isn’t that what music is supposed to be about anyway? Which I could not agree more.

The more I learn about metal bands doing things like this and talking about mental health more I think there is a reason why there is stigma against it. For the longest time rock was seen as the ‘devils music’, but I think the fears are unfounded. I can understand if the certain aspects of the genre are not your cup of tea. 

I used to not be into any bands that had any screaming in it at all but that is no longer true and I am glad because then I would not have heard the bands that I have. I am glad that I have stayed open to trying new music and bands. I love learning about how genre’s and bands came about. Every music artist has their own story that someone somewhere can identify with.

A band included with one of those ‘Self Help Fest’ is called Motionless in White and their sound is crazy good as well, though in a totally different way. I find myself frequently impressed by them. Each song of theirs has a different influence which you can hear as each song plays if you listen closely. I have heard influences from Marilyn Manson, Deftones, Korn, Rob Zombie, and they even do a cover of Rammstein’s Du Hast which I actually really dig. I hope to see them live one day as I imagine they are great live. They have such versatility with their sound, which I really vibe with because I often get tired of the same sound.

What makes a band a rock band versus a metal band? Well, if there are any extended guitar solos or a major breakdown then probably metal, and definitely metal if they randomly go BLEGH! in the song. But do genre’s really matter? Or are genre’s simply labels we make up as we go? It seems like more and more I see music artists breaking down barriers and blending their music where it is hard to tell which genre it fits into so it becomes a genre all its own. This makes me happy to see. 

Many people I have met either like country, rock or rap or hip hop but usually never all 3 which is crazy because metal, being a subgenre of rock, has its roots in blues, R&B, and country. As I am looking around in Spotify more, I am finding bands that sound very much like classic bluesy psychedelic music and it gives me hope for what the future holds in music. 

Politicians hide themselves away

They only started the war

Why should they go out to fight?

They leave that role to the poor

~War Pigs by Black Sabbath

Added 10/21- I watched the induction of Ozzy Osbourne to the Rock and Roll Hall of fame yesterday on Disney Plus and it made me want to re-listen to his stuff today as well as Cher as I honestly hadn’t in forever. I played the song ‘War Pigs’ and remembered at work during a team building activity my group being called the War Pigs and my boss played it every time it was our turn. I am reading the lyrics now it gives me hope all over again. I think Maynard was invited to sing one of Ozzy's songs and I totally felt for him as his voice is not the same range as Ozzy’s and he has never liked being in the spotlight or understood the obsession with lead singers specifically. I can understand because honestly, I did not recognize many names of the talented guitars players who played on stage during the show, which makes me sad because every member of a band is important and should be remembered. Also, the Browning is about to release a new album and what they have so far is.. golden. I cannot wait for the full release and tour? I have already seen some concerts next year that I am interested in. 

 All that stuff about heavy metal and hard rock, I don't subscribe to any of that. It's all just music. I mean, the heavy metal from the Seventies sounds nothing like the stuff from the Eighties, and that sounds nothing like the stuff from the Nineties. Who's to say what is and isn't a certain type of music? ~Ozzy Osbourne

Woodstock

I watched a documentary on Netflix about the 1999 Woodstock where they tried to revive the 1969 well-known first festival and how much of a mess this one turned out to be. I could not believe that actually happened. All it would have taken was them knowing their audience or the music artists better to see how much of a trainwreck this 3-day event was going to be. It was so obvious to me it was not about the music at all and they were just going off the vibes from the past hoping it would make them fast money, which only pissed off everyone there. People might have been there to see a certain band but it wasn’t about the music. If it was then there would have been so many things done differently.

If you knew the lineup at all you would know that the overall vibe of their music and fans is way different than the vibe of ’69. I mean come on, Korn, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Limp Bizkit.. Kid Rock?? The fact that the event runners were shocked by the behavior of Limp Bizkit’s lead singer was surprising and even more telling that they had no idea who the artists even were. On top of that, they didn’t have any sort of actual security at all, which is just an excellent idea for an overpriced, huge festival in the heat of summer where your food and water was taken upon entry. It was just a feedback loop of chaos that kept escalating. I can see the energy of the crowd become intoxicating and easily getting caught up in the moment but at what point is it time to say enough is enough? When the crowd starts harming the artists you paid to be there? Or when the crowd starts tearing down the venue?

I place no blame on the music artists at all. In fact, they were in danger the whole time of the mob turning on them. It is crazy to see how group mentality works, even when you think no one would do such a thing or something would happen in real life. This is the stuff of movies, right? This and the Holocaust and the Jim Jones massacre I could not believe when I was learning about it. I almost needed to see images or videos of it happening or the aftereffects, which made me feel morbid and wrong or something. Are we so desensitized by violence and action in movies that we need to actually see it when it happens in real life? Or is that we just don’t believe what we hear anymore and need proof?

Girl, the only way to light is to go through darker places

The only way to feel is to open up and face it

The secret to this life is embracing meditation

Girl, you gotta see the vision then just go and fucking make it

~"No Judgement" by Hippie Sabotage

I know everyone is responsible for their actions and I found myself asking multiple times, why don’t you just leave? But then I realized how much time, money, and excitement went into just getting there for the experience that they felt obligated to stay hoping it would get better but it just got worse and worse.

The fact that the organizers didn’t stop the show until it was too late and well past the point of return was another reason why it was clearly not about the music because the artists safety should factor into that too. Bush and Jewel tried to calm the crowd but could tell they could easily turn. It wasn’t until they brought out the open-flame candles on the 3^rd day that they finally put their foot down after fires started.

It was scary at times and I totally felt for the artists. I know I would not have felt safe being there with that crowd. Watching the documentary, they hit the nail on the head saying the whole thing was like a trainwreck and impossible to look away. The behavior of the concert goers I saw was not indicative of the behavior I have ever seen at any rock, metal, or any concert ever and I hope no one thinks that is normal behavior. It seemed to me that the organizers failed the music artists and fans and they were fed up and fought back against greed which ended up putting music artists and other fans in danger.

Metal shows can get pretty crazy and I have never been in the mosh pit myself but I have heard and witnessed the unwritten rule to look out for others in the pit and pick up anyone who falls. As crazy as it sounds, I even saw a guy with a kid on his shoulders and everyone made sure to avoid them, no matter how wild it got. A concert should be a fun time about the music and should not be traumatic experience you have to fight for your life during.

If we were to ever bring it back, the artist lineup would need to be chosen more carefully and the whole thing planned better. Apparently, there was a younger guy who tried to shed light on the fact that, given the lineup, it might not be the best idea and he was ignored. Cheryl Crow performed before Limp Bizkit and they do not have much overlap in fans so she struggled to get through her set. It was hard to watch in some parts as the crowd was not respectful towards women at all and the hate towards the boy bands seemed to be indirectly tied to that. I happen to be one of those girls who was obsessed with those boy bands at the time and I could only imagine if I had been there and how I would have felt.

Honestly, I do not go to big concerts or festivals anymore, no matter how good the lineup is, because it seems to me that the bigger the venue, the less it’s about the music. Maybe it’s because I am getting older but I find myself more and more drawn to the smaller venue shows where I feel more closely connected with the crowd and band. The only exception being the band Shinedown because jeez they can play anywhere and you feel like they are right next to you. But anything that is outside in an arena, pavilion, open field, with a long list of bands I will skip. There are some bands that only do those type of shows that I will never see live and I am okay with that. I love it when no matter how popular some bands get, they still find time to play at small venues. One that comes to mind is Sevendust who I have seen live before and frequently get emails about them playing at small venues, sometimes with just them.

If there was ever a potential revival, the artist I would choose to set the tone and theme of the comeback is called Hippie Sabotage. I learned about them through a coworker who turned out to be a good friend of mine and I have been obsessed with their music ever since. They have a song called ‘Om’ that I like to start my day with. I really vibe with them and their sound and lyrics of their music. It is very realistic and relatable with the main message being that life is shit and people are shit but you keep pushing through no matter what and stay focused on yourself. Don’t let the past get you down. It is the ‘live and let live’ mentality that I vibe with and am hoping will make a comeback in society. We all think we know what is going on but really have no idea, myself included.

 

So go on, treat me like I'm different

'Cause I'mma live it like I'm different, yeah

But the world never change when you wanna change

And the people never say what you wanna say

So go and live your live like you don't give a fuck

'Cause I been runnin' through this life and still can't get enough

~ Different by Hippie Sabotage

Fresh Friday Finds 9/20

I am all about discovering new music so I thought I would make a quick post on Friday's of fresh finds in music. Either new songs released or new artists or a new genre. 

This week I re-discovered an artist who has a really unique voice. The artists name is ionnalee and the songs I heard is from her new album called CLOSE YOUR EYES. She is a Swedish artist who I first heard from her song 'Remember the Future' I liked by her on Spotify and I really vibed with it. The songs message is how we forget our dreams and child-like hopes of the future and to hold onto that because this, where you are right now, is not the ending. I really liked that message and its something I always need to keep in mind when my brain tries to drag me down. 

The songs I have liked the most so far on the new album are "la la love" and "not your cherry".  I really like her voice. It is very ethereal and soothing. Writing this post while listening makes me want to listen to her other songs now. She has a pretty extensive album spread, with the first one dated 2010. Apparently they started as a audiovisual online project under the name iamamiwhoami which she used a kickstarted for her own world tour. Crazy. She has released some songs in Swedish as well, which is kinda cool. 

If you want to check out a Spotify playlist of all her songs, you can check that out here- https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3verceSLRCaXfH19THiHNH?si=f103a54173234337 

I'm not your cherry

I'm not using your worn vocabulary

It's not my song, you sing it

I'll be over here forever dancing in the rain

(Love)

Blues

My grandfather loved the blues so I decided to create a playlist of songs that either make me think about him or that he would like. I uploaded some CD’s that were given to me that he used to listen to with Stevie Ray Vaughn, Eric Clapton, and one was called Absolutely the Best of the Blues with various artists. I even added my own from Kenny Wayne Shepherd and this artist named Gary Clark Jr. has been bringing the blues sound back. He is very talented. I highly suggest to listen to Gary Clark Jr.’s song The Healing and get some healing of your own. Music heals. Even across generations it has a way of connecting us all if we let it. I hope blues makes a comeback. There has not been much variety of sound when it comes to rock. I mean each band has their own sound yes but as far as their being other genres within rock like psychedelic or blues I have not seen much of in the past.

One year I finally discovered the band The Black Keys and devoured their numerous albums. One of them is even called El Camino, which my grandpa had one we kept and took family pictures with after he passed. I really love the bluesy sound to their music. Their music has evolved and changed over the years so not everything sounds bluesy but the ones that are I love even more. I am pretty sure that the song Howling for You was the first song I heard by them and it’s not very bluesy. I am still in love with the song Little Black Submarines and will never forget when Johnny Depp played with them on stage- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SNKE5LYC0lw

The trick I use on Spotify is find the artist whose sound you want to find more of and go to a few of the “Fans also like” artists (or artists from the same playlist) and “Add to Queue” a few of their Popular songs (not always the most played) of each until you find something you like. And from there you can refine your search and narrow down to hopefully find the sound you are looking for.

I love discovering new music but I have the hardest time searching for it by words so finding new music can be hard for me. I often know what the music I want sounds like in my head but cannot find it by searching so I have to get creative. I finally figured out the genre for my playlist called Good Chill Vibes is called Dream Pop which has helped finding more and more. Music is so much more to me than words so I think that is why I have a hard time describing it in words to search and had to come up with this trick to grow my playlists.  

If you like the sound of the Black Keys, their lead singers name is Dan Auerbach and his music is very bluesy as well. Give him a listen, specifically his album Keep It Hid. I just did that with Dan’s Spotify and found this song called 250 Miles by Radio Moscow that is crazy good. Kinda reminds me a bit of Pink Floyd. I have listened to a few of their other songs and I really like them. I now have found a playlist called ‘Blue Heavy Stoner Rock’ which I am going to Save. Also called Adding to my Library or Favoriting or Following. Spotify loves to change what it means and I can’t keep up, but you know what I am talking about.

There is a chance every genre might make a comeback one day and this is why I always try to stay open to listening to different genres and artists. You never know what you will discover that you like or re-discover when it comes to music and that is a huge reason why I love it so much. It is something that can easily be a talking point with others that you can connect with. There is a part of me that wonders what my grandpa would think of The Black Keys and some of these other artists I found.. At least now I have a playlist that I can listen to when I am thinking about him.

Edit to add- I started a playlist for new blues/psychadelic rock tracks I come across, if you want to save it-  Blues-psych Revival

MUSeIC

I decided to make a separate blog just for and about music because it is a huge passion of mine and I didn't want to have all my main blog posts to just be about music. Because I could easily see myself doing that. There is always more to discover, talk about, or try out yourself when it comes to music. I am one of those people that believe music is meant to be shared in any way possible, which further explains why I wanted to have a separate blog for music. 

There are so many different kinds of music and different topics you can talk about-  current music obsessions, music played in the past, how music was discovered and all the stories connected in-between. When words fail me then that is when music comes into the rescue and it has done so over and over for me. Music reminds you of what it means to be human. I try to keep an open mind when it comes to music and the fact that I will continue to discover more gives me something to look forward to everyday. 

I thought it was silly back in the day having to buy a full album just for one song and the push against downloading music. Once you buy something it should be yours to do with as you please. I did not want to buy something without knowing I like it and will listen to it. Now with Spotify I pay them monthly and have access to pretty much all of it and that is a crazy fact to me. There is so much that exists out there. It really saddens me when others do not want to branch out and explore because I feel like it helps you broaden your knowledge. You can use music to learn about other languages, cultures, history, pop culture, or pretty much anything if you are open to it. 

They say learning a musical instrument is good for your brain so I have thought about learning a musical instrument. I only have experience in grade school orchestra playing violin and choir. I liked doing that but don't think I will do it again. I have always loved the way the cello sounds but didn't want to carry or worry about maneuvering one of those around. Oh there was a brief period where I had an electric guitar that I never played. I wanted to play but was not good at reading music. 

I got a singing bowl a few years ago and then got a kalimba, both of which I find relaxing to play around with. The kalimba I got is a handheld one that is really cute and can hang around your neck. I have a picture below which will link to where I bought mine. For me I find it nice to mindlessly pluck instead of picking at my nails or fixating on something else. The sound it makes is very soothing. I like to spell out words and see how it sounds together. I have thought about learning piano in the past and just never have. I have a keyboard I can learn songs on and play different sounds from. I find it really fun to play around with instruments. I think it would be fun to get a tongue drum to randomly play and relax with. If you want to read more about those or the singing bowl, this is also where I got mine- https://www.shantibowl.com/blogs/blog/tongue-drums-complete-guide 

'Cause I'm only human after all

I'm only human after all

Don't put your blame on me

Don't put the blame on me

~Human

by Rag’n’Bone Man